The author Lee Siew Hua highlights how journalism is both "a gregarious activity and a solitary pursuit". And how "it's wonderful when we're at peace with both sides of our lives".
This article really made a connection with my soul... Because, quite frequently, I have wondered if I'm schizophrenic.
I love to be social. Anybody who has been to my birthday parties can attest to that. I enjoy being around people, to go to events, to organise events if need be. My job, of course, requires me to be surrounded by lots of people, every day, for hours at end.
On the other hand, I equally crave to be alone. I enjoy my solitary shopping trips into town, my solitary hobbies of reading, knitting, watching TV. And due to the nature of my work, I think I yearn to be alone even more so these days. It's such a luxury to be able to sit in one corner all by yourself, listening to the radio, to zone out and be introspective for a moment...
I have yet to reconcile and make peace with myself that it's fine to be both sides of the same coin. When I'm out on my own and enjoying myself, doubts would start to creep upon me and I'd end up asking my friends out to join me. When I'm out with my friends, I'd feel bored and distracted and wish I was by myself.
I am what I am,
A star among the hundreds;
To bask in the company
Of so many like myself.
I am what I am,
A comet falling past;
To fly away and vanish
From so many like myself.
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